Grieving hypotheticals that never came to pass is not a thing I let myself do, or I would never be able to stop. I just try to romanticize the possibilities of the life I can have now, since that is a thing that uses my imagination and sense of play without leaving me feeling persecuted and deprived of the futures I wanted and can’t have.

If this is a weight you truly feel, and not a burden you can get out of by deciding that hypothetical futures are not beloved attachments, then I will be here to listen.