Theory of the Bathroom Door

[genderjumper]

You know how, if you are in one place long enough, you learn the exact right amount of strength needed to close a door? Based on deviations from today, cross-referenced with past deviations noted or suspected, I present the theory of my state of mind based on how well I close the bathroom door at my house:

• Door does not close all the way, especially if it's more than an inch and Kiddo is awake: I'm really tired, I'm emotionally drained, or I'm distracted.
• Door closes completely or nearly: all is well.
• Accidentally close the door too hard/loudly: I'm overstimulated, in a hurry, or potentially hypomanic.

Will report back on findings if anything comes of them.

Comments

[flamingsword]

So hypomania would be a really odd cause for this, but if you had a vestibular or proprioceptive sensory processing issue, that can cause all of these behaviours. Do you like swing sets, rollercoasters, spinning or things that feel like they are pressing or pulling on your body sometimes but at other times they feel too much? Do you sometimes feel like you are about to bump into something when you are not, or actually bump into things that you thought were further away?

[genderjumper]

Oh, I never thought of there being anything differently-functioning, I just assumed it was my mood/energy level!

I have historically really liked swing sets and roller coasters, though I can't say I've been on either much in recent years. I LOVED merry-go-rounds when I was a kid, but I would run alongside it to make it go faster, then pull myself on, lay down, and watch the world spin. That sounds like a nightmare today, and I have never liked spinny things any larger or faster than a merry-go-round (which aren't very common any more because too many kids hurt themselves).

I have historically been known to bump into hallways I should know intimately, again, with more frequency when I am VERY energized.

[flamingsword]

Here is a good breakdown of the basics, if you are interested. My sensory difficulties are mostly audio and tactile, but I know enough people with vestibular stims and sensitivity for your stuff to sound familiar.
https://www.nspt4kids.com/health-topics-and-concerns/sensory-processing-disorder/understanding-sensory-processing-disorder-vestibular-system/