Not so Little Things

[genderjumper]

My article went up and I like it but don't love the cuts they made. Algorithms are burying my shares, but several people who have seen it said very nice things. May recite a longer version for a salon at some point.

Today a lot of weird little interactions between me, the house, and wild minifauna trying to get their names on the deed. I got the sense the universe really wanted me to pay attention, but I can't tell if that's for a day or a lifetime. Same as it ever was?

I have in the wee hours, however, learned that one of my best friends (out of the three closest, the one who doesn't live in this state) has been rattled by possible breast cancer in his 20-something sister. I'm going to be checking on him a lot, which limits my bandwidth considerably and means I may not be ready to pause therapy yet after all...

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[flamingsword]

Yikes! That could get heavy.

As to therapy: do you have any goals for wanting to change who you are? If so, are they the kind that are not achievable with your current social resources? Because I get wanting to stay in talk therapy if it’s a resource you’re used to relying on, but also it’s expensive and a time investment. Plus, if you’re not changing unhealthy stuff and getting more stable, your therapist might feel like you’re wasting their time.

I have a Pinterest board for therapy stuff for folks I know and another one for ways I want to grow, so I should really make a locked journal entry about the goals I haven’t been able to do by myself for when I get back into therapy.

In other news, I really need to get on making some icons, especially the “fuck cancer” icon.